thoughts on love

loved the encounter the unceremonious glee filled encounter loved the guilt ridden pleasure
the seconds the hours the time that passed when destitution scamapered about smearing our names with that sick slick city stench

that foul mouthed gutter drawl that dialect reserved precisely for moments or years like these rolling off my tongue honestly, apathy, reality, stand tall firm fixed - squeeze the dreams squeeze the dreams till the pips sqeak clean freshly squeezed back alley dreams, serenely fucked deeply, sigh

here now, reality:

here now, window
here now, gaze
here now, turn
here now, class
here now, speak
here now, window

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breathe breathe
turn gaze out window

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white collar cuffs sweating breathing panting choking wrists choking smoking choking cuffs choking wrists blood clot fingers choking window head throb window time to gaze out tooth clenching window time to dream

time to dream about love
no apathy here, in the dream
in the dream love, without apathy

here now window turn class speak turn window gaze turn class speak turn window gaze

gaze

think

thoughts about love

problem:

all love leads to apathy...

apathy leads to desire
desire leads to repression
repression leads to depression
depression leads to desperation
desperation leads to fornication
fornication leads to impregnation
impregnation leads to subordination
sobordination leads to desolation
desolation leads to isolation
isolation leads to separation
separation leads to condemnation
condemnation leads to indignation
indignation leads to segregation
segregation leads to accusation
accusation leads to manipulation
manipulation leads to penetration
penetration leads to dissipation
dissipation leads to duplication
duplication leads to imitation
imitation leads to repetition
repetition leads to interpreation
interpretation leads to magnification
magnification leads to falsification
falsification leads to negotiation
negotiation leads to absolute frustration
absolute frustration leads only to more frustration
more frutstration leads to nullification misapplication miscalculation mummification retardation constipation evaporation domestication elimination of emancipation complete contamination of the imagination complete molestation of the imagination complete deprivation of the imagination

problem:

all love leads to apathy

solution:

less love. love less. weightless love. no love, no apathy. time to think. time to be. time to wonder. time to move. live between love. somewhere between. neither hither nor thither. somewhere between. live freely without love. without apathy.

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